Haven't Blogged in forever.........
Yes, for those of you who still check this thing on occassion, LOL, I am finally blogging. Its not that I haven't wanted to, its just finding the time to do anything these days has been a challenge. All in all its been wonderful though, so I like to think of it as a good thing that I havent had time to blog.
My Son was here for a week in Feb. It was really cool. He is taller then I am now(barely hehe) but I am definately begining to see a young man. Its sort of amazing when I think about it. I just hope he finds something to focus on in his life. Right now he is so dispassionate about everything, but such is the life of a teenager right?
Arrrrrghhhhhhh, here I am finally having time to blog and I have writers block! I guess really more what it is, is its hormone time again and I am trying to keep the negative feelings in check. I really am trying to get a handle on this, though I think sometimes K doesnt think so. But 2 different doctors and I have discussed how it really doesnt make sense to go on daily drugs that may make me a zombie the rest of the month, just so I don't get so down in the dumps 2 days out of the month. I know I can do this. I come soo close each month and then usually blow it over one little thing that just hits me the wrong way. An old friend of mine who is bipolar, told me her trick is to watch for triggers and then avoid them if you can. I tried warning K this month, that it would be a hard weekend... may I can do better in April. I just hate that I take it out on K, thats not fair. Men can just ignore you when you go balistic, hehe, but your soulmate is much more intune with your feelings. We did promise that we aren't going to let our hormones come between us. That is helping alot. Knowing that she understands.
Well, I tried not to be a negative as I have in the past when I'm like this. Fortunately the 2 days are over know and I can feel myself coming out of it already. Its amazing how our bodies work sometimes. I am going to do my best to make this a good week for us. I am loving my Life now and want to enjoy every minute of it. I just have to remind myself that the bad days are part of the Ying Yang balance that is central to my life. And if I can strike a balance of 28 or 29 good days to 2 bad days every month, thats a pretty good deal!
posted by Ting's Tang @ 3/13/2006
4 Comments:
Caly, I don't know the drugs you are worried about. Can you elaborate? I know my anti-depressant (Lexapro) doesn't leave me feeling a zombie, and it really smooths out the lows that come with my hormones. Give it a try.
Thanks for your reply Kim. Its not that I am worried about any particular drug. I took Anti-depressants for 2 years back when I was battling my severe depression. This is Perimenopause related though and we tried various AD meds. What happens is they either completely elimanate my Libido if I take a high enough dose to actually help how I feel during the few days of my period,(and K and I would rather deal with my mood they go thru that! Hehe) Or they don't work at all during my down days and I have no need to take them at any other point in my cycle. While I will happily take drugs when I need them, my doctors and I dont think they are the answer for this since its so isolated and I have no other symptoms of depression at any other time of the month. Its just menopause rearing its ugly head and I am not ready for HRT since I have no other symptoms for that either.
I think K is just going to lock me the closet for 48 hours next month *wink
We will get thru it I promise, and thanks for caring.
*Hugs
Caly
Is it a full moon? Anyway, I thought I saw a full moon last night. You don't have to answer that btw.
Sometimes I think that my eggs get wild and start chanting,"Ouga Chaka ouga! ....I'mmm, I'mmm Hooked on a feeling."
Okay enough silly humor.
Practically everyone is taller than me. Last Sunday at the gym, some of us stopped our workout to see the last minute of the Duke/Boston College game. I was standing there and noticed I was in front of this guy. I moved and he commented that he could see over me. He was sitting down. LOL
Take care and hugs!
Rj you make me smile! Thanks!
*hugs
Moonbeam
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