Taoist Thought

Tao is O

Tao is O

Beyond words,
Not a thing;

a being.

The ultimate
wu-wei. (non-action)

O is one
with the Universe

and your Partner.

Tao is O

by CalyD 2009

First Pantheist Poem

This came to me this morning and I think is the heart of who I am as a Pantheist. Not everyone can expound scientifically on Nature and the Universe. For me its more about painting a picture with words..

GAIA's Grace

Water carves stone
like the artist she is.

Wind signs her name
to the mountains, and tree
growing sideways.

Hawk, stars,
and sapling,
whose roots move the sidewalk
to find earth to call home.

Who can not know
this is God.


~CalyD (2009)

Coming of Age

I am a Pantheist.
Not that titles really matter but it does help me understand myself when I can put things in boxes sometimes 8-).

For the past year I have been reaching into myself trying to put a handle on my Paganism and today I finally found the word that encompasses it. I believe that the Universe IS God and that the Goddess is in everything. Its why I don't feel the need to worship a certain entity or go to church or perform any rituals in order to feel close to the Goddess. She is with me all the time especially when I go outside and be with Nature. I am a true tree hugger. There is a spirit in a tree just as there is one in you and me and ALL things are sacred.

Its hard to explain but I feel now like a new window has opened for me and I can be more spiritual in my life. It will also be easier now to explain to people when they ask about my Paganism.

Its silly and amazing at the same time that one word can change so many things. I have come of age.
8-)

Totem Animals

My spiritual quest as drawn me down the Native American trail and I am feeling very much at home *grin. One of the things I feel a connection to is my Totem Animals. I didn't realize until I began studing more about them, that I actually have 9 Animal Guides. I have known for many years that Red Tailed Hawk was my right-hand and Main totem animal but I now realize that Giraffe is on my left-hand side and guides my feminine energy. Now I understand why I am so drawn to them.

Anyway I asked the spirits for guidance and they revealed to me my other 7 Totem Animals. They are:
Badger to the East
Spider to the South
Raven to the West
Armadillo to the North
Dog - Above
Wild Boar - Below
and Coyote - Within.

I was pretty surprised with some of these results, but it is about what they have to Teach Me, not whether I like them or think about them much. In time though I feel I will draw closer to them in some ways, if I leave myself open to what they have to show me.

Spider is one of the interesting ones because I am somewhat afraid of Spiders. However the South protects the Child within and helps to balance out your personality. Spider's strength as a totem is creativity and she represents infinite possiblities with her body shaped like an eight and her legs representing the 4 directions and the 4 parts of the wheel of time.

So in honor of this guide of mine, today I wrote a poem. I call it

ArachnoLove ( a play on acrachnophobia hehe)

Spider came to me
on a tangled web of words.

Now my head is full
of sticky threads.

8 pen strokes later,
I am no closer,

But my heart sings
with freedom.



~Caly D 2007


And so I create with Spider's help. 8-) I truly feel that if I walk this Path sincerely, I will find the balance in my life that I seek. In the weeks and months to come I hope to explore each of my Animal Totems fully and will certainly write about what I find.

For those that read this blog, Enjoy

In honor of Beltane

I did a few exercises at the Poet's Workshop board today and since today is May 1st, I felt it only fitting to write in honor of the Goddess.

Summer sure took hold today,
this cardinal day of May.
Beltane fires roar
and winter Gods
retreat once more,
to wait out
the Wheel of Time.

Caly D 2007


And this second one which is really rough but is a form poem called Acrostic.

Bring forth the spark,
Enrobe the pyre, for
Lust will set us free.
Tomorrow's wind blows warm
Again. A
Never ending cycle, an
Everlasting dream.

Caly D 2007

Poem, Prayer, Spell..

This has been rattling in my head for weeks and I have to get it out.

Spirit Call

The Horned God
leads the world of men,
now and forever
to begin again.

Gaia
makes women dance,
to weave and spin
and take a chance.

Children
run to Brid's embrace,
as if growing up
was such a race.

Gods and Goddesses
protect us All,
hear our simple
soulful call.


--CalyD 2007--

Pagan Power Name

Caly Silvermoon

That is the pagan name I have taken. Not that you will probably see me refer to myself that way very often. I may use it to sign a few things in the future but mostly it is a power name for me. A way to think of myself as a continue my journey down the pagan path.

There was a time in history when Pagans took a name to help hide their identity.,when persecution for your religion was rampant. This way if someone was caught, they wouldn't know your real name and would not be able to help the authorities find you. Now of course that is not the case. People take pagan names for various reasons. For me its not unlike when Catholics take a 'confirmation name', its a way to signify your entrance into the tradition.

Why this name? Well Caly is of course the name I use all the time now. When I first started calling myself that, I said "Carolyn is who my Mother wanted me to be, but Caly is who I am". It represents the real me in my heart. I feel incredible power when I think of myself as Caly, (not just in a pagan way but also as a lesbian), and it was a step toward more self esteem as a person that means a good deal to me. A way to distance myself from my past and live the life I was meant to live. So even when I use it with out the Silvermoon surname, I think of it as part of my pagan connection and a way to express my pagan tradition on a daily basis; as well as revealing 'the real me'. It was also very cool afterwards to have a fellow pagan point out the connection that gave me to Kali, the Hindu goddess. She is a triple goddess (part of the maiden, mother, crone philosophy) and very powerful. I like the fact that I honor her name. Also from a numerological standpoint, Caly Silvermoon has the same number (3) as my birth name so that makes it a good choice.

Silvermoon is the part I added recently. I just felt I needed to 'complete' myself in that way. I always new my name would have Moon in it. I have felt a connection to the moon all my life in ways I can't explain. Its just a very powerful talisman for me. The silver part came to me after much deliberation, but just seems right now. Silver is the color associated with the goddess Artemis, whom I wish to honor; and also silver on the color wheel for those of the Wiccan tradition signifies the goddess, the removal of negative energy, and developing female powers. It also relates to dreams, stability and victory. All good things in mind.

So Caly Silvermoon it is. I may not be opening a bank account in that name anytime soon LOL, or even say it out loud very often, but in my mind and my heart it will be the name that gives me strength when I need it.

Blessed Be.