A Coven of One

A friend recently asked me to share more of my Pagan beliefs with her if I was willing. At first I was going to write her an email, but then decided to leave it here instead, since I know she reads it and this way I can share it with others as well.

My post is titled as such because sometimes I do feel that my beliefs are like no one elses but that is OK because I am starting to learn that we do need to find our own Path to enlightenment so to speak. One thing you will notice about my ramblings on religion is that I incorporate soooo many different ideologies into it but I just think that strenthens my beliefs not lessens them.

First off let me clarify too that though I mention Coven I am not Wiccan. All wiccans are pagan but not all pagans are wiccan. Its not that I dont believe in the tenants of Wicca, its just that I dont believe in following the rigid guidelines of any religion. I think religion is the antithesis of God or the Goddess as you will. The core of my beliefs is built more on Mother Nature (for lack of a better word for her, though there are many) being THE Goddess. Nothing is more powerful then nature if you think about it. And I just can't wrap my head around the image of some 'god' looking down on us and saying .."Ok let me have an flood here today to teach this people to bow down to me".. I think nature is the Goddess itself.
But I also dont think we need to worship it. Here is where I get away from organized religion and all its trappings. I think our goal is rather to live in harmony with Nature. To find the Balance is to be at peace.

Finding that balance is my Path. I think the ying yang is a more powerful symbol then the fish the christians use. Again if you think about it..NOTHING exists one sided. There are 2 sides to everything. Even the other side of Infinity is Nothingness which is something.. We are set upon this path to find the center point of this existence and live there in peace. We have even been giving the tools to do so. Our minds are big enough to develop the technology to tell when we are building a city below sealevel or to find the faults in the earth's crust. So if in knowing these things we still chose to live there and we are then wiped out by the forces of nature we choose to ignore. Is it the fault of some God or even the wrath of Mother Nature? Hardly it is our own choosing.... hence or failure to find the balance in our life.

I believe too that nothing happens by mere chance. Kismet is a strong presence in this world and while we are destined to make choices, and suffer the outcome of those. When we begin to walk the right path, the fate of those choices brings more happiness. It was like when I finally opened myself up to the 'way' which is how some pagans talk about finding their center. I started by no longer denying who I was in this world. Coming out as a lesbian brought me not only peace of mind, but also led me down this path and into the arms of my soulmate. Its all intertwined in my beliefs..

Soooo are you confused yet? Its often soo hard to put into words what I have begun to find as I live the life of a Pagan. One good book I am currently reading is helping me. Its called Moonheart by Charles De Lint. There is also a book I read many years ago by someone called Carlos Castaneda (the teachings of Don Juan) that talks about finding "the way" I need to track it down and reread it for sure.

I will blog more on this in the future... Thanks for reading..