Home grown Goddess

I was going to blog about my boss at work and how miserable I am because of her, but decided she wasn't worth the effort.

So instead I will share about my Goddess. Back in July I read a book called "Dance of the Dissident Daughter". It was about a woman's journey toward feminism and to find her inner self. It was really interesting how she brought to light how patriarchal the church is in most religions and how much earlier beliefs were grounded in the idea of women being more revered in society. This is at the heart of my beliefs too. Or at least part of them. I don't think we need to 'worship' either male or female but a balance of both. However I do recognize that long before the bible, there was a strong matriarchal influence in our culture and I don't think it should be forgotten or pushed aside. Rather then subscribe to the idea of a omniscient, venegful God, who punishes at whim, I feel more in tune with a nuturing Goddess who asks only that we live in balance with all things; for if the balance is broken then nature's force is revealed.

Anyway, in the book, the author creates an altar to the Goddess in her home as a reminder of her strengths as a woman, and I thought that was neat. Not that I need or want an altar in my house. As I have said before, I don't 'worship' anything, I Live my beliefs in my daily life. However a reminder of what I believe is pretty cool to wake up to. I have a copy of the Desiderata on my wall, which is my mantra, (you can read it at my website if you don't know it), and I thought perhaps a goddess statue to go with some of my other Pagan symbols would be fun to have.

At first I was going to buy one, but couldn't find exactly what I wanted. During the course of the book, there are many forms of the goddess discussed within different cultures and for different reasons. What I really wanted was a compliation of all I saw in "my Goddess" in my soul. So I decided to make one. What better way to express one's beliefs after all? Hehe. Now mind you, I do not consider myself an artist in anyway, but since this was only representative of an idea and a focal point, I figured it didn't matter. It really is only for ME anyway.

What I came up with is this. Funny looking I know LOL.. sort of looks like a monkey at first glance, but hey! I believe in evolution among other things so perhaps that was just coming out in my mind. LOL
But it does have all the symbolism I envisioned, and I am proud of it. I Don't bow down before it and say prayers, nor do I think it protects me from harm. It does however remind me of my strength as a woman, and that life is a journey, and that nature plays a very important role in our world and in our lives, and we should respect that. ( That's a bamboo plant next to her by the way.)

Well I must say that sharing this has been much more cathartic then venting about my boss, so perhaps my Goddess did play a role in my life today. *Smile.... As she does every day!